Bring real

What do you see? (Besides the bathroom that needs picked up…)

I’m going to be real…I see the belly that while I’ve lost 110 (!) pounds is still obvious to me in person and in pictures. I see the hips that still look wide…and to a degree…not a lot of difference from my minds memory of my old body to now.

It takes a LOT of self talk and working through this…a LOTTA LOT! It takes going back to pictures to SEE the difference.

I haven’t done pictures in front of the office door in a while…progress pictures help with the mind game that is this weight loss process. Even buying size 12 or 14 pants and large or medium shirts doesn’t really register…

I’m proud of where I am when I get all of my mind joining me in the present reality.

Thanks for joining me on this journey!


Catching up

I’m not sure how this will flow just now…will it be one big post or several. I have been struggling to come up with content so I kind of hope it’s multiple…

In no particular order…I had to go to the PX today to pick up meds. The last time I allowed myself to wander in the clothes, I was still too big for most of the designers they have: Michael Kors, Calvin Klein, Lucky Brand.

Today, I took time to wander. To my surprise there was a lot of clearance items.

It’s still nearly 100 degrees here and I don’t really NEED anything…but I was curious. I browsed and found a Michael Kors sun dress (L), Karl Lagerfeld jeans (12 &14) Michael Kors jeans (12) and Lucky brand jeans (14).

When I first heard of Lucky Brand, I was already too big. So…I was very interested in trying them on. The 14s fit!!! I didn’t get them…I just got the ones at Old Navy a month ago…and it’s still too hot here for those-they weren’t on sale (although PX price is pretty good compared to retail!!)

I couldn’t get in the Karl Lagerfeld 12 or the MK dress – it was a smidge snug. But everything else slipped right on…it was a great feeling!!

I’m about ready for fall so I can go find some jeans and warmer weather stuff!

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Time always gets away from me…

I knew it had been a while. I was pleasantly surprised when I looked back that it had just been a little over a month…that’s not great…but I really thought it had been longer. So that’s something…

Let’s see. Shortly after the last post, I had the pleasure of taking my boys to Disney World. My husband stayed back to take care of his mom and the dogs. The boys and I had a great time and that was the first time really since I’d lost a lot of weight. The plane ride was comfortable…plenty of room in the seat. It was hot but it didn’t break me (and we made sure to rest plenty at the pool or in the room during rain showers).

It was a great trip for so many reasons!

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I surprised myself

I had an email from Old Navy letting me know their jeans were half off yesterday. Most of my shorts (and some tanks and dresses) this summer were from Old Navy…and before that it had been YEARS since I bought anything at Old Navy…not even the yearly patriotic T-shirt’s. They didn’t fit…I even avoided shopping there for the boys to save myself the disappointment.

Yesterday…because my shorts were from Old Navy…I went to try some on. Because…it will eventually cool off and I should be ready…

The 14s were LOOSE…12 Talls were a little snug…and they were skinny jeans. I haven’t done skinny…ever…

I’ll take that progress over the stupid slow moving scale any day…(20 lbs from the nutritionist’s goal weight…it had to slow down sometime…)

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One Year Ago

ONE year ago… there can be such a difference in just a year

One year ago, I went to see a surgeon. I had pain and after a couple of different doctors, I landed in the surgeon’s office on the next stop to find the pain.

My weight wasn’t a huge topic of conversation when I would see my primary care provider. It was usually mentioned in passing. I had been on blood pressure meds for over 10 years – two of them.

The surgeon wasn’t really following along with what I said was my pain. And it was intermittent…so it was hard to nail down. She tackled, very bluntly, my weight. She brought up weight loss surgery and I met with the surgery coordinator.

It was a Friday. I thought about it and maybe even mentioned it to a friend or two. By Monday, I started the surgery requirements and didn’t look back.

Yesterday marks 8 mos since surgery. I haven’t been near a scale…so I really don’t know where I stand. I’m crazy close to being 100 lbs down.

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Vacation Part 2

This vacation was a lot more family time. It was very relaxing and a lot easier to work the meal plan.

Holiday barbecues…luckily they are full of protein. And they are full of family.

It was a great visit. I’m working my way home. Early flights in the morning and the kids are staying with the grandparents for THREE weeks!

I’m going to take the opportunity to try to refine some dinners we can all eat and try to get back to family dinners during the week.

Thanks for joining me on the journey!